What happened to my head recently, thinking of which arms he would end up in.
What a choice he made for his eyes were brighter than the sun. A glittering mind of gold he has. Wondering where I had gone wrong by my short comings.
He said I had no brains of love making turning him to a moaning bird at night. He shoots again, telling me of fantasies earlier on Constructed by a spirit he dreamt of.
I was stunted by his words, again buried my head deep inside the ground with great stars of shame.
His libido Changed from me to someone else he met at a filling station. Exchanging numbers at first sight caused our calamity.
I broke in tears again, then fell to my knees. God was the only one I should have knelt for, Why?
Ending this gracious relationship that lasted ten years just a blink of an eye.
I begged like I was begging for a second life, if feelings was installed permanently I would have won.
Walking on a lonely road then talking to my self like I was mad but had clean clothes on.
Demonstrating with both hands like I was interpreting or Communicating with a deaf and dumb.
All the drama I acted made me came closer to God, I wasn’t missing Sunday church. Fasting day and night. The scripture was my best book.
People lately stood and watched me closely, then whispering to themselves, is she insane?. I Looked nerd before them all especially in the beautiful clothes I putted on. Men still turned and looked at me twice or trice. But what was in their dark mind? Some of the men looked. At me till I disappeared off their sights, what was in their dark heart again?. Is either they wanted to have a taste of what was discarded by the man I once loved leaving me before my flaming eyes.
I was changed like the way he changed clothes.
God revealed to me as my faith grew stronger, my understanding was more of a philosopher and a psychologist. Now am a Better psychiatrist. Diagnosing broken hearted madness.
Written by: BAGUDU ABUBAKAR KING JUNIOR